I know you know I know

Did I make it sound like I live on the beach in that last post? If I did, I didn't mean to. My writing is for crap.

I don't live on the beach. The beach is a few miles form here (as the crow flies). There's a big bay, Pensacola Bay, between my neighborhood and the Island so I can sometimes see the jet trails when the Blues Angels fly... especially on a clear day ... plus... they tend to turn the jets really wide sometimes and fly almost over my hood when they are practicing or doing the air show. That's my story and I'm sticking to it.




The red blob in the square neighboorhood near the foot of the looong bridge is my humble hood.


so no.. I don't live on the beach. I live in a regular neighborhood. The kind with perfectly square blocks and lots of trees in an older part of town. I like it here... except for angry teenage neighbor across the street who might at any moment break into my house, steal my money and my weak non-effective pain pills, and hack me up. haha... (I laugh through my tears and fear)

I don't think I've ever seen a 17 year old that couldn't be left alone. Someone has to be with him every minute.... to baby sit him. It's the strangest thing I've ever seen. I think at his age I'd give him a little freedom and let him take the consequences for his actions. That's what I'd do if I were queen of the world. ha!

Well... life here in acville has been more than a little sucky today. I'd love to tell you about it but it's very personal and I just can't bring myself to spill my guts out here on the tooobs like I'd like. GAWD but people can really piss a person off!!!!!

Oh hell.. In a shameless attempt to get some support for my position in this thing I'll tell you this much.... I told a person something once that ONLY I could possibly know. Now I find that person doesn't accept what I said as fact. In other words... they either think I was lying to them or they pretend to think I was lying so they can get sympathy. I had to dig deep... into and through a bunch of pain to tell them anything at all. I could have very easily refused to do that. But I didn't. I spilled my guts like I won't do here and they blew it off like it was nothing. Meaningless.

I've been a mess about this all day. My first instinct was to say mean things. In a mean way. I won't do that. It's not me. I'll do nothing. I'll leave this person to live in fantasy land. I will not try to set this straight. I will not revisit that pain again. Not for someone so screwed up and/or ungrateful that I went there for them the first time.

To CB. You go ahead.... Live your life in a world created in your head so people will pity you. You know the truth. And you know I know you know the truth. I also know why you pretend it is different than how it was. If you let it be known that you accept the truth then there would be no reason for anyone to pity you. How the thought of that must suck for you. The thought of living your life without pity. It must be more than you can bare.

One question... Is it difficult to lie to yourself like that?

Yeah. Good luck with that.





Good grief.


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and so it goes

The Captain left for work on Wednesday and things are getting back to normal around here.

It was a busy off time. We mostly worked our butts off doing things that needed to be done and some that didn't but we did them anyway.

The Captain cooked ribs for family friends. The husband is not doing well... Do you remember the older family friend who has Alzheimers that I wrote about last summer? The one who went missing in the woods for 36 hours and the Captain found him? His health has really been going down.

He was once a navy flight instructor. He flew airplanes all over the world.... It's very hard for this family to accept him as he is now. Weak. Frail. Helpless. Disoriented. This is so difficult for all of them. My heart just breaks for them.

Anyway, the Captain cooked a big rib dinner for the family and even took everything over there so they didn't have to leave. Everyone loved the food and ate way too much.

This off time we did some major cleaning around here. We moved all the big things in the house and cleaned behind everything. The dust bunny colonies were impressive. Thriving, I would say. Lovely in an 'omg, how the hell long has it been since I've cleaned behind this thing' sort of way. I never like to halt progress but the dust bunnies had to go so in the end.... the dust bunnies got the boot.

We did have a scare while the Captain was home. One day he comes to me and says something is wrong with his eyes. He can't see the tv. He thinks he might be going blind.

OMG... says I. You poor baby. Does it hurt? How long has it been this way? Let's get you to the dr for a check asap!

He says ... nooo.... He doesn't think we need to go that far just yet. He says he thinks he'd like to try a 40 inch high definition flat screen tv first, and see if that would help. Yeah. Right.

So here it sits. In all it's glory. Men are such toy buyers. HA!

I've been paying a little neighbor kiddo to water my plants. Not because I'm lazy but because I'm quite fond of little kiddos who are raising money to buy themselves a new pair of soccer cleats. So cute. I'll pay him to water until he gets the cleats. He was here this morning before I got up and had everything watered before the butt crack of dawn. Hummmmm..... I wonder how he feels about laundry?

The Blue Angels are flying over the beach today. It's a beautiful day. Not raining. No clouds. A perfect day for the Blues to fly. I'll be hearing them all day. I'll hear the sonic booms and I'll see the trails. I won't go out there thou. Tooo many people having waay toooo much fun for this ole curmudgeon. ha!

Summer is leaving for vacation tomorrow. She's going to Myrtle Beach. Sounds so relaxing and fun. Soul is coming here in a few weeks for vacation... Everyone is going on vacation.

I want a vacation.

Dammit! ha!


Stay tuned to see if I get myself one.



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Heavy load

Heavy load 'o crap. HA!


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Some snaps from the Captain's camera

Some pics as promised from the Captain's new camera. Many are industrial as that's the kind of stuff he's looking at much of the time.




Electronics in wheel house. Computer. Charts. Maps. Radar. Radios. Much stuffs to help him drive.





The view from the chair where he sits and drives 6 hours at a time, 12 hours a day, for 23 days.





View of Mobile Ship Channel coming into Mobile Alabama. Purty.





Here we have a deckhand striking a pose... and falling just short of busting a move.



Here we see the tow coming apart as the Captain makes a turn in the canal. Thankfully, the wire only broke on one side and he was able to stop the thing before crashing into the bank. She don't drive so well with only one side wired together. ha! After stopping the Captain says he sent the deckhands out to lash her back up and off they went again. Exciting times for the Captain on the Intercoastal Waterway!



Here we have a view of world famous Lu Lu's restaurant, owned by Jimmy Buffet's sister. Our girl!... Our very own Anna recently escaped to Gulf Shores Alabama and dined with her kiddos here. The Captain comes within a few feet of this place about 6 times a week. Sometimes I drive over (about an hour away) and partake in some good ole Southern fried food and wave at him as he slides by.




Next we have the barges as they appear to The Captain as he's coming up on a bridge. This bridge is really not very wide. When the boat is under it, there are only 15 feet left on either side. Being able to judge distances well is a big asset to The Captain at times like these. ha!

That's it for now. More to come. Stay tuned.



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